CELEBRATE

Dear God,

Lately you know we’ve had a late on conversations and that you’ve been showing me many images from my past in my dreams.

We went over all of the tattoos I’ve gotten over the years and it brought me back to why I got them in the first place.

I’m here to stay spiritually connected and be move through spirit, never through flesh. Never be of this world, but in it. 

Keke’s favorite tat is my ‘CELEBRATE’ one on my left wrist and I got it to symbolize the happiest year of my young life and a time when I was 10-toes grounded in my spiritual faith.

I’m getting back to that, a lot. A lot a lot. Right now, in the midst of collecting these unemployment checks - a pandemic going on - recording and editing this next project - making a YouTube series - reconnecting with friends back home and alladat.

I forgot for a second. 

This is who I really am.

Before I went to college, my favorite story to tell, I had the meanest teacher in HS pull me to the side to tell me

“I see you around this campus a lot and you seem to kick it with everyone. The jocks, the hipsters, the gang members, the stoners, the theater kids, the band geeks, everyone. There’s something special about that.

I don’t know what you wanna do in college, but this is a very special talent that not everyone has. So whatever you do, you should try to find a way to incorporate that.”

For the past few years I put on my hoodie in grocery markets hoping to not be seen or heard. I go into big networking events and try to stay to myself. I am not trying to be as viewed anymore (maybe that’s why I’m doing all of this media from behind a laptop). 

But I miss it. I miss being able to connect with people. I miss picking up on new social cues. I miss learning people and learning from people. I miss meeting and getting to know new people, and I don’t know where it went.

I’m bashful with this gift and I know it. I don’t ever want to be seen as thirsty or trying to always be the center of attention or blah blah blah. I want to be respected more than I want to be famous for sure. 

But I miss feeling like I can walk up to anyone and talk to them.

God, I wanna do that again.

Thanks mannnnn.